I’ve made up my mind long time ago, to give basketball up in jc. But every now and then, i get the urge to continue, to keep trying and trying to be outstanding in this area.
I guess it’s just not easy to give up something that i’ve learnt to love for the past four years, something that has always been top priority during my whole secondary school life, except for the second half of sec four.
I was doing some aimless blog hopping just now and chanced upon the blog of this bballer, who’s feeling down cos she thinks she’s a damn lousy baller, and she’s wasting a space on the team and brings the team down and all. I felt like encouraging her cos i know what it feels like (TOTALLY) but haha, i don’t really know her so. And then when i read her posts i feel so relieved to be out of basketball, cos she just wrote whatever i felt back then, in words. The exact feelings i had. And i wouldn’t want to go through that kind of shit again, where my confidence level became equivalent to zero.
But yet at the same time when i come across pictures of my juniors training/having matches and all, i really miss that whole big family. When i’m with them, i don’t have to pretend to be anyone else. I feel at ease. I feel at home.
When i entered in secone, basketball was my last choice. It ended up being my first (don’t ask me how/why, i don’t know either) and slowly i morphed into some super committed (yet lousy) baller who trained at least 3 times a week, and even woke up at like, 6/7 in the morning on sundays to practice my 3 pointers. Crazy shit. Maybe that’s the one reason why i couldn’t excel. Maybe i was just training for the sake of improving and keeping up with others and not because i had this burning passion in me.
To speak the truth i never really expected much from myself during games, i must say my stamina improved tremendously and my 3 pointers were relatively accurate, but i guess maybe i just lacked interest to play outside and all. I think the sole reason why i self trained was to improve D:
Seniors said that bball in jc is different, i guess in secondary school you can still 混水摸鱼 like me and many others hahaha, but jc you can’t do that anymore. I will learn to give it up, because i know i won’t be happy. It’s difficult for me to just end it cos many of my friends come from the bball circle, and my closest friends as well. Plus, the sc bball court is like my second home i feel so at ease with my team, jl, the seniors, the juniors, around me. But i will be glad that these people have stepped into my life, and i have these wonderful memories to keep
Okay so after my very long analysis i shall decide not to join basketball anymore. Waste team space only hahahahah. But whatever it is, I’M SO VERY PROUD TO BE PART OF SC BASKETBALL (L).
Okay okay what cca! I LIKE FLOORBALL it’s fun! Last year during pe when we played floorball, i hit the ball so hard it flew to the second floor of the hall, mr ang was like O.O HAHAHA what a joke.