Take a bow

Okay, some updates. I’ve been so tired i haven’t really had time to update. So.. yeah.

1) Netball carnival with zhoukai, bryan, yuanming, cheryl. 2nd place. $50 island creamery voucher. I guess getting BLACK is worth it (:

2) Been hanging around with the ballers quite a lot, been playing ball quite frequently these few days.

3) Can’t bear to give it up but i will, competitively anyway

4) I need to start sleeping earlier

5) Ad Infinitum ended

6) OG 30 outing, i learnt how to play pool <3

7) ARTEMIS FAC DANCE! Artemis, why you so cool?!

8 ) HEHEHEHEHEH. (:

9) WO XIANG WO DE HAO PENG YOUUU (S). Whale’s HP class is so fun, so similar to my 4SE gangstas omgggg imyyyy like shit i swear ughhhhhhh ):

Only thing worth mentioning today, juniors thrashed queensway 77-9. You guys are awesome, keep it up. You have no idea how proud i am <3

I will not cry anymore, fuck it, i will get used to it.

Heart.

You know what, i’m not gonna try anymore.

All along, we’ve always been on the same side. Now i finally realise how hard it is to go against you. I’m angry, i’m irritated, i’m annoyed, AND I’M SAD. Why have things turned out this way?

I’m sad that after everything, this is how you behave. If you really wanted to, you could’ve taken the initiative. And you know what, since you’re not even keen to keep it going, i’m not going to try anymore. Really. I don’t like this. I’m not a pushover. And i definitely don’t take the blame for something that i shouldn’t be blamed for.

Time and time i’ve tried again, i’ve been patient, i’ve been polite, but what have you given me back in return? You’re rude, you don’t think of my feelings, you don’t even CARE about anything related to us anymore.

You know what, i miss SC, i miss old times, i miss team recesses, everything’s so different now even when we come together cos people have changed. Ffff i wanna cry. We’re not important to you anymore, i get it now.

Take me higher

First two days of school, awesome. First day was rather intimidating, but at least when i got out of the car i saw this HUGE group of girls in blue, waiting at the bus stop.

Well it’s definitely different in hwachong compared to sc, chinese is used WAY more often trust me. In sc, the only time we use chinese is.. during chinese lessons. Then again, only the teacher uses it so yeah haha you get the idea. Feels a little weird, i must admit. But ah well my chinese sucks anyway i need more exposure HAHAHAHA (Yeah right).

Btw i <3 OG 30! Hahaha mostly its the girls that are enthu, but i guess the guys do join in too haha. Kay i’m lazy to update about any games, but it was fun. Except for the carrying game where i got carried for all 3 sets and then got scratched and whacked by millions of girls trying to take my cap -.- But i saw some guys that just dropped the girl (that they were carrying) on the floor when they were tired i was like ?!?!?!

There are also friends i made outside my og (: Haha lunch with queenie cheryl lydia shermaine (sp?) at fishtank yesterday, and we’re not even in the same ogs haha. But all from girls’ schools i guess that’s why we can click.

Okay haha school’s fun (for now) but i still don’t like the idea of dragging myself out of bed at 6 am in the morning. (I need to stop hitting the snooze button on my alarm clock btw).

IT’S THE WEEKEND But i’m such a busy person, sigh.

Hwachong

Okay, that’s it. Read my sms from MOE at 7.35 am when i was still half asleep, BUT NOW IT’S SUNK IN THAT THERE’S SCHOOL TOMORROW. I am. intimidated. I don’t know anyone from my og it seems like they are all from nanyang/hci omg, save me please. There’s no other sc girl with me ):

RAWR I SHALL BE BRAVE AND FACE TOMORROW WITH A SMILE. (even though all my good friends are like, in acsi/rj sighhh)

Beautiful nightmare

I’m sitting in front of my macbook and indulging in super sinful brownie cheesecake from cafe cartel. Omg super nice, but super. sinful. i. tell. you. Ahh it’s okay i’ve had a super wonderful day today, and i figured i won’t get to enjoy life as much as this once school starts, so whatever.

(:

Heal the world

MJ songs remind me of 4SE, and mr jo. I have this super strong feeling inside me right now, i’m missing them so so so much ): I want the people who motivate, inspire, and encourage me back. Awh i really can’t describe this feeling, it’s just </3

“Stop existing and start living.”

Hot mess

Helloooo right now i am typing and stoning at the screen i can’t even see what i am typing HAH.

Went back for trng today with anna! 5 rounds for warmup (no more 10 rounds in 10 minutes warmups for me), then played 5 on 5. Half court man all the way, gosh i almost died, defending all the fast ones haha. I get to defend the fast ones while my sister gets to defend the big tall ones HA, SHE GETS WAY MORE BRUISES THAN ME. (: I mostly get scratches -.-

Caught up with the juniors, i hope they don’t get too stressed out over o’s this year! Though the teachers seem to be stressing them out already, WAYYYY too early. I was still playing my ass off in may last year. Sigh. Ah well. Things change.

Met teo, chatted for rather long, updated us about some stuff going on in school now. So many changes sigh. Gonna go for dinner together soon BUFFET LEH HEHEHEH awesome. He told me (if i get into hwachong) my school will just be down the road, if i’m bored after school just text him and we’ll go for lunch together. Haha, i just hope that i’ll be THAT free.

And i’m so going for sc carnival this year, it’s gonna be CRAZY. And malaysia trip this year i don’t wanna miss it anymore, apparently sc basketball appeared in the malaysia newspapers like HAHAHAHAHAHAH FUNNY PLEASE.

Came home at around 6 (didn’t bathe after trng kay yucks), bathed and went out again for dinner zomg damn tired now. LET’S HOPE I’LL BE ABLE TO SLEEP TONIGHT! Insomnia the past few nights, slept at like 2, 3 am everytime ):

OKAY I’M SUCH A HAPPY GIRL TODAY COS I CAUGHT UP WITH MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE <3 I love this bball family, cos with them i don’t have to be anybody else, i say what i think and i do what i want to do (even without thinking sometimes) it’s just so natural. (: Maybe its cos everyone else is just like me, some friends think i’m weird when i do stuff that all the basketballers do hahahaha. I’m just so glad i know these people!

It might be hard, i might be the only one trying, i might feel discouraged, sad and lonely, but i’m gonna put in an effort to change things and i ain’t gonna give up cos i know things CAN go back to the way they were before. Wish me luck (:

I can’t think of a title

I feel so useless staying at home doing nothing! Trust me, one whole day at home is enough to kill. Not to mention three? I don’t understand how people can sit down, and read a book for the entire day or something. But i guess i’ve been going out excessively that’s why i fell sick, so now it’s time to rest. I love being out late at night though, esp when i’m with people i love and we just sit around like homeless people for hours, just talking (L)

I think i’m gonna stop blogging once i start school Just maybe. Oh my god i just realised we (team) haven’t had our chalet for this year and school’s starting real soon :S

Okay fine nobody’s commenting everytime i check my stats, the number isn’t small but everyone just refuses to let me know who they are hahaha FINE BE THAT WAY.

I’M BORED :S Omg i love this face. WO YAO CHU QUUUUU WO YAO DA LAN QIUUUU. OMG IT’S THURSDAY I FORGOT TO GO FOR TRNG.

Oh btw have i mentioned i’m so proud of the juniors for thrashing whitley 65-12!!! (L) JIAYOU B’DIV, ALL THE WAY. NATS OKAY.

Basketball

I’ve made up my mind long time ago, to give basketball up in jc. But every now and then, i get the urge to continue, to keep trying and trying to be outstanding in this area.

I guess it’s just not easy to give up something that i’ve learnt to love for the past four years, something that has always been top priority during my whole secondary school life, except for the second half of sec four.

I was doing some aimless blog hopping just now and chanced upon the blog of this bballer, who’s feeling down cos she thinks she’s a damn lousy baller, and she’s wasting a space on the team and brings the team down and all. I felt like encouraging her cos i know what it feels like (TOTALLY) but haha, i don’t really know her so. And then when i read her posts i feel so relieved to be out of basketball, cos she just wrote whatever i felt back then, in words. The exact feelings i had. And i wouldn’t want to go through that kind of shit again, where my confidence level became equivalent to zero.

But yet at the same time when i come across pictures of my juniors training/having matches and all, i really miss that whole big family. When i’m with them, i don’t have to pretend to be anyone else. I feel at ease. I feel at home.

When i entered in secone, basketball was my last choice. It ended up being my first (don’t ask me how/why, i don’t know either) and slowly i morphed into some super committed (yet lousy) baller who trained at least 3 times a week, and even woke up at like, 6/7 in the morning on sundays to practice my 3 pointers. Crazy shit. Maybe that’s the one reason why i couldn’t excel. Maybe i was just training for the sake of improving and keeping up with others and not because i had this burning passion in me.

To speak the truth i never really expected much from myself during games, i must say my stamina improved tremendously and my 3 pointers were relatively accurate, but i guess maybe i just lacked interest to play outside and all. I think the sole reason why i self trained was to improve D:

Seniors said that bball in jc is different, i guess in secondary school you can still 混水摸鱼 like me and many others hahaha, but jc you can’t do that anymore. I will learn to give it up, because i know i won’t be happy. It’s difficult for me to just end it cos many of my friends come from the bball circle, and my closest friends as well. Plus, the sc bball court is like my second home i feel so at ease with my team, jl, the seniors, the juniors, around me. But i will be glad that these people have stepped into my life, and i have these wonderful memories to keep

Okay so after my very long analysis i shall decide not to join basketball anymore. Waste team space only hahahahah. But whatever it is, I’M SO VERY PROUD TO BE PART OF SC BASKETBALL (L).

Okay okay what cca! I LIKE FLOORBALL it’s fun! Last year during pe when we played floorball, i hit the ball so hard it flew to the second floor of the hall, mr ang was like O.O HAHAHA what a joke.